Rachel Roberts was a brilliant actress, but also a woman riddled with insecurity. In the eighteen months before she took her own life she kept a journal, in which she reviewed her life from her childhood in Wales right up to the last tortured days preceding her death. The journals provide an account of the ever-descending spiral of suicidal depression. Two themes dominate her life and her her addiction to alcohol, and her "hunger for love in all its miraculous and unrealistic aspects". Interwoven with the journals and Alexander Walker's commentary are the words of Rachel's colleagues, doctors, and close friends, together creating a poignant portrait of an extraordinary woman and her tragic destruction.