Eight days before Christmas 1992, Arie Brouwer learned that the tumors surgeons had removed from his body earlier that week were malignant. The next Sunday morning, at the very hour he had expected to be leading church worship for the Fourth Sunday in Advent, Brouwer began instead to jot down his reflections in a journal. At first intended as a form of therapy, the journal soon became a way of sharing his thoughts with family across the United States and friends around the world and then grew into a vehicle for conveying spiritual and theological insights gained during his twenty-five years of service in the ecumenical movement. Arie Brouwer died October 7, 1993. The ten reflections in this volume move from Brouwer's early struggle to come to terms with his disease, to his thoughts on living daily with a terminal illness, to his final poignant look at the important things he would leave behind - his family and his ecumenical vocation. Following the journal are a short but significant essay on "ecumenical immobility" and two of Brouwer's sermons that highlight the central subject of all of his reflections - absolute faith in God.